It's happened that I like again to watch the movie "What A Girl Want"... The story is a Cinderella-like... where Dahpne a regular american-girl is grown up and would like to search for his royalty-father in England, to experience having a dad and her long-time-jealousy-dream the 'father-daughter dance for she is running 18 years old then... My first time to watch was when I was still single and now am annulled with a pretty daughter and this time I watched with her...
I was like I don't know how deal with my daughter and I am not comfortable watching with her... You see she is with me and her father is in England now with another family. My daughter was 2 years old when her father went to England to work and then we got annulled so she didn't have a father figure with her as she grew up, now she is 10y/o. I ask her what she feels watching it the fact that she never had the real time with her father since 2y/o and I am so sorry with that... she said 'mom I am ok I understand and I don't feel such jealousy'... I don't know what exactly she feels or thinking regarding with it even-though that is what she answered me... but as a mother my heart become heavy and sad with the fact... I grew up not being close with my dad also or my dad seems like he didn't exist as I age so I know the feeling... the security or protection the father could give or the-love-the-care-the-concern-the-father-image-the-"Father-Daughter Dance"... was lacking or didn't had the chance to experienced it... My heart so heart-broken or sunk thinking of my daughter!
I never can give her 'a father-figure'... My prayer for her to be strong enough to face the reality of her life from a broken family and understanding as she mature... I love her so much and I know I can't give such a 'father-daughter dance'...
